Live Together Die Alone (live alone die alone ?)*
I just don't know what I'm suppose to do, to think. I just don't know how to think, how to feel. I need to write as I did months or years ago. I miss it. I miss the way to explain myself and understand myself. Even if I've really never understand. I miss words. I miss so much more things, some feelings that I can't find, that I'm not sur I will be able to find again. I really miss it. And I just wanna know how to react, how to move on. I need to move on, I have to. I will move on. I just have to seize that damn occasion to begin something new, at least something better. Better for myself, better for them. I kinda lost myself day after day but I am not lost. I must convice myself that I'm not going to be lost, at the contrary I know where I'm going. But I don't know how. I must and I will, but I don't know how. I don't even know if I'm able to succeed. Coz I'm so afraid. Afraid of what is going to happen. Afraid of moving on, even if I have to. I'm afraid of losing, of failing. What if I disapoint them ? I'm losing myself coz I'm alone. I feel so alone every single minutes of this damn life. And it's losing me. I have to find the way to overcome...And the only way I found to express that is that one...
